Is Your Saboteur or Sage Running the Show?

Have you ever been in a meeting when you were tired, stressed, and suddenly someone asked a question that sent you into a tailspin of confusion and overwhelm?

I have. Twice this week alone. And it was only Wednesday.

Here is what I learned. I have a pattern. And yes, it is mine. Surprisingly, that is actually good news.

My ego does not love this realization. It would much rather complain, judge, and keep me stuck in self doubt.

My task master is not thrilled either. It wants me to push harder, work longer, and listen to the constant hum of hurry, worry, and never enough.

And my inner child would prefer to disappear, take a nap, and eat bon bons.

Each of these parts is trying to protect me in its own way. But instead of guiding me forward, they keep me caught in stress, self doubt, and avoidance. Together, they form what I call my inner saboteur, pulling me into a reactive and overwhelmed state.

But there is another voice available to me. The voice of my inner sage.

Tuesday night, after coming close to a full meeting meltdown, I decided to shut everything down and give myself the rest I clearly needed. The next morning, I woke up feeling different. Calmer. Clearer.

From that steadier place, my inner sage reminded me that I already have a way to navigate confusion and overwhelm. I had not lost it. I had simply forgotten it in the moment.

With more openness and ease, I could clearly see my next two action steps. I got out of bed with purpose, a simple plan, and a renewed sense of calm. The day unfolded smoothly, and my work felt lighter and even enjoyable.

These moments reminded me how my inner saboteur thrives under pressure, spinning thoughts like I have to choose the perfect next step, I do not know how, or I should not be doing this.

When I slow down and care for myself, I can hear my inner sage again. That voice offers clarity, alignment, and energy. This path feels easier. More grounded. More fulfilling.

For now, I am practicing remembering this path and returning to it more often.